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Credits
--Diah Mastura--
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:: The Beau ::
Sunday, November 23, 2008
The dear bf has been eminently thoughtful and invariably understanding. I on the other hand have always been the whirlwind, at times raging with profound despondency and at times calm and soothing as the morning breeze.
Sometimes I wonder how he can remain so clement despite the daunting occurrences and constant isolation. I would have been in a panic attack but the bf, knowing his characteristic, would have always put up a brave front together with his signature charming smile. He will face the ordeal gallantly and break the bricks of adversity wisely. It is remarkable how he could do that subtly. I am obviously envious, in fact so curious on his strong confidence, on how he equably keeps a positive mind and never let anything pin his spirit down.  Ever since I’ve started working, my time has been constraint to only work & studies. It is really hard to have a proper fifteen minutes phone conversation with beau let alone a lasting date like we used to enjoy. I barely had anytime for even a decent meal with dear who has always been there supporting and giving me his fullest encouragement. I know I am rather selfish but the complex circumstances have ate me up from within.
Unconsciously, I am transforming to a pathethic loner who hogs her life on work.Fortunately I realized it early. We relived it again and it has never felt this surreal. That was when a moment of anagnorisis hit me. Yesterday,I was suddenly overwhelmed by astounding emotions that it felt hard not to cry. I realized that loving him and being loved by him is the best thing that has ever happened to me but in lieu of embracing his sincerity, I reacted hostilely towards him. I let him wait for my call day after day, promised him that I’ll get back to him soon after work but ended up dozing off to the La La land.
Other guys would have jolted in rage but the dear bf, he still clings on to that hope, to that promise, to that sacred trust between us and so he still waits for my call without a flinch, selflessly tries to understand my situation and willingly forgive. I realized that I am so lucky to have my best buddy for a soul mate who let me have my own space and never fails to let me know that I am loved and cared for.Therefore I made a pact with myself to divide my time equally. The priority still goes to the love ones as well as education while the rest is secondary. Although it won’t be easy, but I strongly believe that it is possible. With a wonderful guy by my side, it is no doubt that I am a far stronger demoiselle now.Thank you dear for being there for me. I want to be there for you too and I will! This time, it's for real!
:: Splendid ::
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Just came back from the camp last Saturday. And boy it was very tired but indeed we enjoyed ourselves and had a great ball of time!
 Celebrated darling Siti's birthday :) She was surprised though, when we Bao Ling & Yani presented the cake to her, since I was busy distracting her! Happy Birthday darling :) Heart you lots!
 Next day, went to the dolphin lagoon after breakfast. Had my photo and Siti's taken while touching the dolphin. Once in a lifetime experience though :)
 After the camp, went home and slept through the evening. Dear called saying that his out with his parents. Called me up again @ 1030 saying his coming over to pass me a surprise from his mum. I love the BodyShop Set together with the sweet purple bag! What more, she even placed bodyshop voucher in the bag for me! *Smell some shopping to be done* Thanks Aunty :) Although I love pizza, I have been on a pizza lull for a while. The hectic schedule of juggling both work and studies has surely bereft me of the usual personal indulgence. Time has as if fettered so much till it left a big lacuna from what was then the quotidian involvement of simple pleasures. So since i was off from school that day, the bf brought me to Suntec and we decided to dine-in @ Pizza Hut.
The ambience is rather lackluster but the delectable pizza won me over. The pizza was soon served to us, piping hot and one bite on the pizza was good enough to draw the conclusion. GOOD!!!! The crust was thin & crispy and their generous amount of cheese and toppings just make it perfect. Dear on the other hand enjoyed his mouth-licking barbecued pasta.
Posed with the bag from his mum :)  We managed to snag some time for a splendid surprise from the bf,Indoor Archery! Although it was a short date, we sure treasure every pulsation of it. Great time with you dear!
:: Randoms ::
Thursday, November 13, 2008
".....We are all looking for that special someone. No one can live alone though some would defer. I've heard it all before, the protests and arguments as well as the cliche saying "I'm better off on my own" Perhaps there were times when we think that way, there were also times, when we see couples holding hands or spending time together, smiling and laughing at each other's jokes and tender moments that we feel a small pang of envious. The potential of being happy, in pursuit of happiness.
Yet, when we look at lapses of weakness, at the pain caused by a failed relationship or misunderstanding and disagreement, we felt that the love process is systemic rather than systematic, or perhaps some see as both. At moments like these when the sayinng "I'm better off on my own" makes perfect sense, but is it? Is it words uttered by the cynic and skeptical, or it is borned by bitterness?
I am blessed because I have found the right partner for me. Notice that I used the word right rather than perfect. When someone describes their significant others as 'perfect' the meaning can be open to debate and interpretation. Perhaps it is this misconception of 'perfection' is the primary cause of all heated arguements and the pitfall of many relationships. Of course there are a myriad other different reasons of a failed relationship.
Though we have been together for a period of nearing to our 4th year this January, and counting, we have never flaunt this to anyone or anybody, we often find ourselves amazed that its been that long, when we both felt it was only a brief period of time. Often I can't really finger what makes our relationship so special or how we managed to endure it against all odds. Sure, I made mistakes and so does he, we get on each others nerves and we disagreed from the most trivial matters, but we also complimented each others strengths and weakness.
It never amaze me, when I look at him and I felt the promise of happiness and that I feel the other missing piece of my life. I always remind myself, the future is not fully set, and what I do now will determine that. It sounds simple, yet it never is....."
So he fetch me after school today and we had dinner together, since I will be going for camp tomorrow. Don't worry dear, I'll be in good hands of a G.R.E.A.T company of my dear girlfriends!
 Busy packing!
To Yani & Siti: We are sure gonna have a hell lot of fun! (*hopes*)
::Tumultuous Week::
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Many msn-s me and asked me, what happened to blog and why it cant be accessed. So sorry guys. I accidentally edited the template html and it went crazy. Now, its alright:)
As usual,there’s nothing like a peaceful company of dear friends,cuzins-get together affair and the date with the love, with one’s promised after a hectic week of ever increasingly tumultuous schedule. It was a simple affair engulfed with effervescence and raucous laughter of my dearly love ones. Alhamdulillah (“,*). Im blessed that such relations still remain strong and the bond and love is there,though you guys never showed them.
A 'surprise' by the love-boy :) Our Raya 08 pic in Jigsaw :) Haha!
 Movie date with the love-boy,cuzins get-together and visit to the hospital to visit my aunt who was admitted.
Time to pack my bag for Sentosa Camp! OoOoOOooo.. Cant wait for the camp and also for it to end! The planning and logistics driving me crazy! Camp, Birthdays' frenzy, shopping date with the gals, bowling or perhaps dinner with the sweets,coming up! Im so gonna be busy! On another note, today is Diyanah's 11th Birthday and dear's dad birthday. (that reminds me that dear is out @ Secret Recipe now with his family. Gonna sms-s him soon! ) ** Let's sing! ** ( happy mood! )
:: Just U & ME ::
Sunday, November 02, 2008
The plan was to drive to Johor for a gate-away,but last minute plannings were made and we headed down to Sentosa instead. The weather was good and we were so glad!
Sentosa has never fails to awe visitors with its beaches,resorts,attractions and the new developmentals projects going on. It was with all these hype that I wondered over to try the 'Luge ride’, tempted by the promise to be enthralled by the "Once is never Enough ride".
 The other time when we went to Sentosa, we didnt take the LUGE, as I was kinda scared since it was raining. But this time, I was all ready and eagered to take the LUGE ride.True enough, the 'LUGE ride’ does live up to its name and made us promised to come again the next time round! Perambulating around the stupendous Singapore's famous attraction, for more than an hour made me realized that what sets ‘Sentosa’ apart from the rest of the other beaches and attraction in Singapore is that it manages to incorporate gardening-related, educational research, retail activities,recreation and leisure under one big canopy. More than just an attraction, it has successfully become a knowledge hub for Tourism & Hospitality while simultaneously providing the platform for this industry to share best practices and promote Singapore and their services. The beautiful island, calm water and the sun, sea and beaches were a teaser to my senses. It not only soothed my mind, but was also therapeutic. It kept me excited as what was to come next!  After a great day, we went to Delifrance to fill our hungry stomach.The fete of toothsome spread, genial clique and the great company made the whole experience a memorable one. Famous Amos complete the day! It was a treat for the both of us!  Later in the evening, we went to Asian Civilisation Museum since there was a Halloween celebration going on. We didnt dressed up for the event though as we werent prepared. Nevertheless, we enjoyed ourselves there,despite the spooky and nerve-wrecking experience in the museum!  We hated the dark corners though, as the "ghosts" just appeared out of the sudden and gave us a jump-fright!  Today, once again went to Sentosa with Yani mainly to make payment for our camp. Drop by Banquet to have our lunch before taking the monorail to Sentosa. That makes it the second time in a week that I went to Sentosa! Sentosa Camp here i come!!! We are so excited! "......Fairytale don't come true,
only the one that began with dark and stormy nights,
and always end in the most unspeakable come true.
It's the nightmare that seems to always turn into reality.
No sleeping beauty waking up with a kiss,
No frog turning into prince with a kiss,
No Santa Claus coming down the chimney,
No seven dwarfs to protect snow white,
No Rapunzel hair for the prince to climb,
No happily ever after.
They're all make believe,
we need beautiful made-up stories in this horrible world....."
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