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:: Birthday Bash II ::
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
First and foremost i would like to thank all my friends and everyone for the birthday wishes tru sms, emails and msn.
Anyway dear surprised me on Sunday night while were msn-ing. He told me that he was baking something for me. Upon hearing it, i joked saying, he would burnt the house stove and oven. But deep down, i was touched. When i told Sara L. that, she said i must be the luckiest gal on earth. Its very rare that guys who neva or isit rarely cook at home, would lay their hands on baking something for their dear ones. Honestly, its the effort and courage that counts :)
 The next day, which was on Monday, he picked me up and we went to Vivo. Wanted to catch a movie, but nothing was nice. And when he took out the cake that he baked, with the candles being lit up, and the happy birthday song which was sung to me softly, i was touched.
 As, we had no further plans for the day, and the main objective was to enjoy the comfort being away from school, lesson plans and books,ndp practices, we went to Gloria Jeans. Settled for Chocolate Mocha Frappe and recalled our memories toegtehr. We talked about everything, from the silliest lame jokes till the serious ones.  As for today, Tuesday 29 July 08, which was my actual birthdate, dear had planned for lunch at Seoul Garden. The plan was to have lunch at Orchard, but since Taka is sooo far away( exaggerating here ) , and since we wanted to avoid the ERP charges and stuffs, we settled for Seoul Garden @ Tm. While eating, my hp rang and one of my friends called. I was kinda pissed initially, coz i was wondering, why in the world must i be disturbed. Im on birthday leave you noe! But i was wrong. The moment i answered the phone, there i heard my class students singing the birthday song for me. I nearly teared. ThankY mANky :)  After a few minutes eating, dear excused himself, with the reason, he needed to go to the washroom. I didnt suspect anyting initially, but when he didnt returned after 5mins, i was curious. Give him a call, and he said he was @ the toilet. Yah yah yah... I noe u went toilet, but sneaked somewhere else too right! My thoughts were right, when i saw, the group of Seoul Garden workers approaching our table with a cake. There they placed the Oreo cheesecake, which i guess he sneaked out to buy, and started singing the birthday song to me. With the crown saying, " princess of the day", i guess i was princess for 3days straight.  For the birthday girl :) Oreo Cheesecake from Royal cakes :) Thank you dear!  After that heavy lunch, we walked around TM, in the hope of getting some stuffs, but it ended up with window shopping. But nevertheless, i felt happy :) Before we called it a day, we went to McCafe and i was given double chocolate Frap'pe, since it was my birthday :) Courtesy of McCafe! Got ourselves comfortable and dear offered me to watch the movie which he downloaded in his PSP, 'P.s. i love you' or watching the movie Congkak (again!). On this date, i felt thankful having ppl i love around me, celebrating my 20th birthday. Thanks everyone :)
::Mornings::
Monday, July 28, 2008
Yawn...
I jus woke up a few minutes ago and decided to check my mail. But the urge of blogging made me continued to sit and stare infront of my laptop here longer.
Went out to repair dear's car GPS navigation at Lavender. And all it took was 5minutes. Reason being was the memory card was spoil or corrupted.
 I happened to meet my old friend on the way back last Saturday. To my surprise she was heavily pregnant. Obviously, she didnt acknowledge my presence, but i didnt mind. All i did was smile and walk away. I have always admired her. She was a bright gal,always ace in her arabic. (by the way, she is my weekend madrasah fren ). We girls with a couple of other frens were very close. But somehow, she didnt acknowledge my presence at all when i smiled at her jus now. Humans change right. I jus wished all the best for her.
Mum and dad went to Norfasarie and Baihakki's dinner last Saturday. But i didnt follow them. Afterall, i rarely, or isit one in a blue moon thing, that i will follow them to weddings, unless close relatives weddings.Old already mah, Paiseh :P Besides i had my birthday dinner with my friends. I didnt noe that dad's aunt was related with her mum. Thus we were invited.
 On another note going out pretty soon later. And i have yet to shower. Better get ready before the love boy arrives!
:: Pre-birthday celebration ::
Sunday, July 27, 2008
....A crystal clear vision, everything went blurry. I was lost in a confused state of mind.
I didnt know that i was really angry yesterday, and yes with the PMS that i had, we fought.That temper of mine was worst yesterday.
Thank you for still showing care and concern despite being hurt by my imprudency and boldness. Its really an eye opener, I'll never forget that moment. Wouldnt imagine if we've missed it by a second. You are my blessing dear.
Dear had all along planned for this birthday celebration for me with our friends. And it was kept hush hush away from me. Im really thankful for having him. And yes we had a tiff, in the afternoon, though dear was being nice,brushed out his ego, comforting me and trying to cool the matter off, i wasnt at all appreciative. I wasnt the usual me yesterday. Normally, i will be fine after being coax, but maybe due to the PMS i was having, that rubs the anger even more.
The anger didnt subside, until dear showed me the link of this girl's blog. Remember the army guy who collapsed at Brunie and passed away. It was really an eye-opener for me. I think for couples. Sometimes we didnt realised how special that person is for us. Reading her blog, made me learnt to appreciate my dear even better. And yes i teared reading her blog. I really felt for her. She is so brave to handle such a situation. I cant imagine myself going thru that kind of ting.
So in the evening, dear picked me up. I was clueless and have no idea wher we will be going. Met abd and his gf. Then abd pretended to call kai, and he told us that kai was still at home, jus woke up. I was very mad. But i kept quiet. So dear suggested for us to walk around TM to kill the time to wait for him. But when we reach level 2, dear said 'suprised' . And i was still blur. There was a loooong queue outside pizza hut, but dear happily went in.
So i was like, eh, why he neva queue. When we went in, Kai was already there sitting on the chair, with the pizzas and drink all ready. Banyak la dorang nye 'cerita' that kai was at home. Bodoh nye abd!
 After eating, a cake was brought to our table. And i was blushing like mad. Ppl from the opposite table were looking. Then dear took out a silver box and placed it infront of me. When i opened the box, i was suprised to see a necklace with my name on it. I nearly cried there. Thank you so much dear.
 Im sorry for the tiff we had. Im not shy to admit that we do have our misunderstandings at time. After all, every couple do have their flaws too. And fights do happen too. Im sorry dear. I have learnt to treasure you even better now. And you are really the best that i can ever ask for. You love me, pampered me and neva failed to paint the smile on my face. Thank you for everyting dear :)
:: Trust = NO ONE but YOURSELF ::
Friday, July 25, 2008
2008...A year that i want it to end fast. A year that im drowned in my own tears. A year where too many truths or isit "my-own-perception" unfold. A year, that many more things and many more truths will be unfolD. Do i have the strength for it? Do i have the courage to face them?
Taking a step at a time? How sure can i be, to wait for it and go through everything?
I fear for the future. Fear for the months to come. A smile that is painted on this face, yet silently is killing her inside..
:: 2-zero > Twen-T ::
In less than five days time, im turning 20. Can you believe it? Oh gosh.. How fast time flies..
Without realising that im now no more gonna be a teen. And how awful does it sound, when someone asks you your age, and you no longer can be proud saying you are____-teen. No more with the word 'teen' ending at the back.
But i guess, turning 20 wont change a person much. Maturity is not about how old you are. Nor does turning 20 will change your life much. Yes,im growing a year older and going to a new phase of the twenties. More things to come im sure.
Somehow, this year i dont wish for so much things unlike the previous years. My ultimate wish is to be happy, in the pink of health with my love ones around me.
 Dear and my other secondary school friends, are planning something tomorrow. I have no clue where i am going to anyway. Later after that, going to grandma place as my cuzins and families are having another get-together birthday party for me.
Sunday will be a day that i neva like to go out. Maybe going for a jog in the morning. Then heading back home and be a couch potato for the day-my usual Sunday hobby eversince dear has been busy with NDP.
Monday or isit Tuesday? Will be an outing for me and dear. Just a mini birthday lunch maybe.
There are so many things going on right now. Going Polyclinic one of these days. Hopefully everything will be fine.
I have been ignoring it and yes it has been hurting me all these past months. I have no courage to visit the doctor,even i was told by the Raffles doctor to do so. But dear has been there telling me he is there for me and wil be there for me.
Insyallah. I believe the reason why god test us, is because he believes that we can go thru it and face it.
I may not have the courage nor the strength to do what i am supposed to. But i guess i can neva run away from it. Either now or later..Even though i may seem happy as usual, but deep down, only god knows how i feel.
I pray for the best....Thats the best birthday gift i can ever ask from all of you..
::Retail Therapy II::
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
As much as i wanted to blog and pen down my daily rants, time doesnt permit me to do so. I was tied down with so many things even right now.
Anyway my visit for my facial last Saturday, impressed me. I love the products and the atmosphere in the room.
 Sadly, i wasnt allowed to snap photos in the room or at the shop itself, but i managed to grab some fast shots, that explains the blurness in the pictures.
 Met dear and we had doughnuts for the day. OoOoO.. I jus love J& Co. Guess, we will make more frequent trips there ;)  The choice of drinks :)  The doughnuts :) Oreology: YUMMY!   Our orders :)  Spent some time there surfing the net on dear's laptop while enjoying our sinful treat :0  Mochabits :)  Now you see.. now you dont!
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Monday, July 21, 2008
I fell, so what? It's not the end of everything, unless, if I let myself drown to such negative thoughts. This reminds me of my favourite playwright, Anton Checkov, who stated that "A Man is what he believes".
The real enemy of our life is actually ourselves. We are a failure only when we believe we are. The citation totally make sense.
If they think they are bunch of intellectuals who cannot be defeated just because they know more, I can always choose not to be inferior and they can't ask me to justify what I believe. They can't take that from me.
What I believe is true as parallel to theirs. I shouldn't feel agitated on what they think about me, they don't even know my full name let alone who I am and this apply to those who seems to enjoy giving destructive criticism(obviously they don't have anything better to do).
Yet, time and time again I felt soo hard not to compel. Stereotypes made it even complex. It's like a soldier fighting over a hundred more. It's easier to say that it is possible that one soldier can win in such situation but isn't that also indicating that the soldier must have possessed supernatural powers to attain such grandious victory when I am just a normal human being?! It's logic that it is tough.
Life is tough. We struggle on soo many things. However, those bittersweet moments are necessary as it is the rudiment towards the more cherishable ones. It made victory more appealing as well. Just give me time to fully stand on my two feet again. I can't quicken my pace when I'm still gathering my strength. I'll be there for sure. Just be patient with me.
Fine, I've been beating around the bush with indirect signifiers. I'll simply put it as I had a bad day. The details are for me to know and for you to guess. Period.
:: Retail Therapy ::
Friday, July 18, 2008
Hola! At last the weekend is here. Hooray!
I woke up quite late today, to catch up on those lost sleep.
Satisfied :)
Dear as usual is out for NDP. And here i am stuck at home doing nothing. Literally bored!
Had a haircut yesterday. Stupid hairdresser, who went to cut my hair shorter than i requested. Ah.. What to say right? Complain like mad oso, my hair is shorter now. But results, im quite ok with it. At least lesser prob with split ends.
Anyway, my dear mum, has been asking me to go for a facial. She has been going for spa with her friends, and found it good. I wanted to go too. But been very busy and also plainly lazy.
Hahah.
So yah, there you go, my buckeroos is now gone after booking an appointment for later @ 4.00.
It comes in a package. Facial + eye spa + massage. So far the people were very nice. They are using the product from French. So yah, gonna get ready later and head down there.
Till then. Adios!
Enjoy ur weekend peeps :)
:::Birthday frenzy:::
Hmm..
I have somehow been very busy these days. And the busy period will continue next week again. Thus since i was quite free today, i decided to drop by TM and Century Square to get Yani's and Farah's bdae present. I didnt get anything (yet) though, as i decided to drop by Orchard and vivo this Saturday, to scout for more choices.
There are just sooo many JULY babies, dont you think so? Maybe thats wat i think. Every time in July, i will be spending time scouting gifts for my 4 dear ones, instead of myself. Im a JULY baby too hor!
As quoted from Yani's webbie, that she wanted a gift voucher from VIVO. Hahaha. Guess what? That was what me and farah wanted too! Except Farah wanted the one from Junction 8, as she stayed nearby there and she often shops there. So... I guess, i had to get for both of them that..
Somehow its good that way. Personally, im a crazy freak for vouchers. As for me, giving vouchers allow the bdae gal/guy get what they really want rather than you getting them something which they neva like/ already have. And at least, spending with vouchers, you dont feel the pinch of spending like a mad woman, than using money.
So, for the two bdae gals, we'll see and wait for your bdae to come.. Im still scouting around! So dont hope too much.. Kakakakka :P (rolls eyes)
Anyway, dear met me yesterday, and yah, while eating Rojak, he gave me three codes to solve.
These three codes will be the venue where he will be bringing me too.
But i have to choose oni one of the codes.
The three codes??
M.H.R
M.S.S
M.T.P
What did i chose?
M.T.P
Thank god he didnt include the code M.R.T.
Hahah. ( lame i noe :P )
Anyway, how do i feel nearing to the big 20 years old age? hmm.. Dunno. I still feel like normal. Just like my teens life. As i was talking with CT just now, about ppl around our age getting engaged, married.. I feel so scared..If u ask the both of us, we wonder what makes these ppl
so eager to get married at a so young age. What more if your partner is still/ just finish his ns.
Like what we were saying, at the end of the day its up to individual..Like for us, maybe not so soon yet. There is still alot in life,that have yet to be done.
Hmm.. So what's my bdae wishlist this year?
I dun wish for anything much though. As long im blessed with happiness,good health, safety, and stability in whateva i do, its enough for me.
But as asked by dear, to make my bdae wishlist, or isit just 'two' wishes...
- I want a Guess bag. ( damn it! Zilah has the one i badly wanted! chet! )
- I want vouchers from VIVO, as there are just too many shops to shop frm there. ( but maybe i get them for the bdae gals instead, maybe next time for myself...kakaka :P )
Nothing else.
::: Philosophical Dila :::
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Aquarius and Leo are opposite signs of the zodiac. Opposites always attract, but they don't always work out in the long run. Leo and Aquarius are both fixed signs as well, making them stubborn and unyielding. The problem is, Leo wants to be appreciated without any criticism, ever. Aquarius would rather be right all the time than cater to Leo's ego. Leo and Aquiarius do find each other intriguing, though, and they'll both be eager to give it a try. This relationship might not have forever written all over it, but it's not impossible. All it takes is a little flexibility and a lot of perseverance. Wow. Associated with instant and inexplicable attraction, this can be a top romantic combo, if other factors are right. Obviously there's a fire/air component to this - the two go together well. But there is also a strong theme of instinctive respect for freedom here - meaning that you two may end up feeling that the other 'makes you free'. It's hot shit in the sack as a result. The thing with your instant attraction, however, is that the foundations may not be solid. If you two fall out it may be because she starts to think he's not "interesting" but just plain odd. And he really is a freedom addict and may wonder why she needs so much attention. Both are proud and can be dogmatic in their opinions. There are problems when neither can compromise on make or break relationship issues. Even the day-to-day chores become sticking points, since Aquarius gets lost in their own world, and Leo won't abide by behavior that hints of disrespect. Aquarius will have to learn to show up on time, too, since Leo won't be kept waiting for long.The struggles from experiencing life in a way that's almost inverted, can lead to a lifetime of growth. They're both full of compassion, and as a pair, have a big impact on those around them. They thrive together when each feels part of something committed and out-of-the-ordinary, but also feel the freedom to fulfill their dreams.
 Anyway.... "God doesnt throw any tests to any of you which is beyond your ability. And for sure he believes that you can go through them..." All relationship in this world, each and every couple on this earth, have their own individual inside story..Bickerings,arguements & fightings will occur in all relationship. And its a norm. And yes its better knowing each other true colours.Much much better. Imagine if you are married, you both gonna see each other everyday,every morning, every night, under one roof.  When you sleep, toss your head, you see him/her in their unglamourous state. And later as days, months,weeks passed,you then realise their truly colours.Red,yellow,green,blue,pink,grey,black and all the colours in their world. Disaster right. Before you knew it, you are on your way to file your divorce. No matter how long you are in the relationship, the best solution, is communicate. No matter how teeenny weeeny or humongous the prob is in the relationship,the two of you gotta calm down and sit and TALK.
::: Randomz :::
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Met up with dear yesterday :) And even though it was a short meetup as i had to rush for my course, it was good enough for us busy couple.
Drop by McDonald for a very late lunch cum early dinner. Dear was so semangat to upsize the fries and the drink (which we rarely does) just to get the Beijing Olympics mug.. tsk..tsk..
So after the meetup, off i went for my course. Super duperly shagged and tired!
 Met Wani there and i fell in love with her skirt. Nice right ?!
Yellow yellow dirty fellow! hahahah..
And when in train, we saw khairul the anugerah winner guy. Haahhaah. Shall not elaborate on this.. winks* @ wani ;)
Made plans to go for bowling, with emi, myself and wani. Afterall, dear has been very busy with his NDP every week. And as i have no plans for myself either.
Literally boredomness! Anyway, the teachers' day dinner 08 info. is out in today's memo. And this is what it says: "It's hello to platform shoes,bell-bottom pants,mini skirts,punk hairdos,corsettes, polka-dots and etc. this Teachers' Day, when we take a step back in time,down memory lane into the Fashion 50s-70s in RETROspect! Come dressed as ABBA,Farah Fawcett, characters from the Grease and Fame,Dolly Parton or anyone you so desire, and the Most Fashionable and creatively dressed will receive a reward...." 
Hmmm... All of us are going crazy on what to wear for the day! But i guess, its nt that hard afterall, as this was my sec 4 prom nite theme too! Hahaha :D
:: Super duper looong entry ::
Monday, July 14, 2008
I know that i have not been blogging here religiously. Been busy somehow and no time to blog.
Thus that explained my absence here.
Anyway, last week, met dear after course and he surprised me with these donuts from J&CO.
It was sooo nice and i love them! Thanks hun!
 Yesterday morning, me and dear decided to go out for a date. Mainly bcoz, we have nt been out together for quite sometime, as dear had been busy with NDP rehearsals every saturday.
We head down to Vivo for lunch. First stop: Fig n Olive.
Fig n Olive has changed alot. From the ambience, to the menu, to the deco.
And i jus love it!
We were torn to choose between Turkish Krabi Rice and Spicy Classic Spaggethi .
Ended up i settled with the Spicy Classic Spaggethi while dear settled with Fish n chips cheese. Below pic: Dear settling the bill Our food Aftermath :)  After that heavy lunch, we decided to drop by Pacific coffee and got ourselves Double chocolate delight. The brownie was very tempting, but as we were very full, we decided that maybe for some other time.  We spent quite sometime there, as dear studied for his Psychopathology exams, while i read my novel. It was mainly lazing around for me :) The seats was so comfy that i nearly dozed off to sleep.  Before heading off home, we drop by challenger to scout for the new,small laptops, as i planned to get it. For now, i shall think about it first. Whether to sell this laptop of mine or just get that small laptop. HMmmm..  Had Karaoke session with the cuzzies at grandma's place on Saturday nite. And it was so much fun! We were pratically laughing and singing like mad hyenas.hahaha. But it was fun!
 Anyway to Bao Ling, thanks for the lip gloss and the so called necklace, not forgetting the chocs too..
:::Eternity Lovers :::
Monday, July 07, 2008
I just got back from meeting my love boy. Didn’t met him during the weekends. As he was at his cousin wedding, Kak Sida’s place.
I wanted to go actually, as I was invited by them, but sadly I was sneezing like one mad woman the night before, and besides, I was kinda paiseh. Duh! Im a shy woman you know..hahahah.. All those idiots who are laughing rite now, laugh la…laugh as much as you all want!
 The dais photo. All photos taken by dear :) Too many photos.. I jus post some here for now..  Imagine if I went, sure I be the centre of attraction instead of the pengantin. U noe why? Simply, sure ppl there will start asking who is that, where im from, how long been together…and the ‘interviewing list’ will go on… ( *as if )  I know that I maybe exaggerating, but who noes rite? If his aunt/ what more cousins who will start asking me 10001 questions. I think I faint there that moment, and the paramedic groom will have to attend to me…hahha…Dila so drama..  Anyway, Im happy and proud :P Once a while self-praised, tak salah kan :P Hahah…I got a very good feedback for the chocolates J yeah yeah!! Happy la aku nie! Dah terlompat-lompat macam beruk. Dah la senyum from one end till another. Nasib baik dear tak masuk kan aku kat IMH.hahahha… Kak Sida and dear's sis :)  Anyway, will be visiting them, especially that cuteypie Nurul Qashrina.. Hopefully one of these days hokay dear! Thank god my dear understand me very well. Hahha.. if not, sure he will mengamuk one, as I didn’t go :P  Anyway to the couple, Kak Sida and Tarmizi Tan, may your marriage last till eternity :)  Anyway, I got my blogskin changed! Yesh! Been wanting to do it. But as usual, I have this equation stuck on my body. Lazy + busy + excuses = DILA.. hahaha.. Besides blame it on my dear, who promised me that he will teach me how to do the shadow skin type photoshop, which he postponed till today. But he was too fast, that ended up he does it for me. Me as usual, comment this cannot,that cannot, heart too big, heart too diagonal, blah..blah… Dila and her rantings= normal!
Hahah… But yah, anyway, thanks dear!
At least I treated you dinner today! Hahahha :)
Hmm..now I love my blogskin better !
::: Congrats dear WANI :::
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Happy 1 Year anniversary wani & fadz. hahhaa :P No matter how difficult is the journey for the both of you, No matter what others may say, critiques or disagree about your relationship, its both of you who noes it better than them And at the end of the day, its the two of you who is in the relationship, its the two of you who is going thru it. There are more to come... And i jus cant wait for your wedding bells...ahahaaha when ah??? 4years more eh?? Hehehe :)
Busy...busy couple :(
Thursday, July 03, 2008
The past few weeks has been a busy week for the both of us. The bf has been busy every Saturday for the NDP rehearsals as mentioned previously. Thus, there goes my Saturday.. :(
Snapshots of the NDP. Sorry dear that i had collage the photos as the file was very big. Sorry if by doing that, has somewhat 'destroy' the quality of the photos.
 I was also busy. Was busy baking chocolates for dear's cuzin, Kak Sida who is getting married this Sunday.06.07.08. Nice date though :) Will head there and see my darling Nurul Qasrina :) Went for the excursion to Gardenia factory just now. Tiring but enjoyed myself :)  Refreshments and the goody bag!  After excursion, dear picked me up and off we went to Changi Airport T3 for popeyes!
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