I gave a loud sigh as i move away from the keyboard. Kept asking myself why? But i just cant seem to have the answers to it. When time permits, i'd normally glance through my friends profile - keeping my self updated with all the changes that life has to offer.

I see photos of them with their loved ones. Some just having pure fun, yes you named it - clubbing and all that sort. While othersbusy partying till late night. These are the things that revolves around teenagers.. like ME.

But when i picture myself in this situation, its totally contrasting! I do not revolve much around all these acivities nor vice versa. Am i not suppose to be having fun? Partying till late? Ladies night? Time Management, well thats what they say.

Heck, for your info i cant even find the time to have a proper natures call! What more to have 'weekends' in my social dictionary.
GGGGRRRRRRRR.

Prolly due to my fast pase job nature and its enviroment that i somehow tend to forget my own age, NINETEEN.

I often encounter this situation in the clinic, when i wanted to take an mc, "Miss Dila, excuse for SCHOOL?"See?

Few of my friends has already settle down, while some are engaged. YUP, you heard me right. Married at such a young age of nineteen? Hey, i aint dissing anyone. Just that i wonder how did you manage to pull off everything? Well of course by the help of everyone. You cant be expecting a teenager to be all financially stable right?

How you treat something that you bought with your own hard earn money compared to a gift from someone else? Well my point is, we tend to be more cautious in keeping it knowing that it comes from us. Im not saying that we dont appreciate gift, just that its different. Lets just say its human nature.

Sometimes, i hate myself for not being able to attend meet ups and whats not.Sometimes, i hope they could understand that somehow my path differs from theirs.

The differences is.. RESPONSIBILITIES. When im at home, i tend to spend time, or rather squeeze Quality time with my family. While at work, teaching is my responsibilities.

Get what i mean? Its hard to find a lil time, even for yourself.
And again i ask myself these questions.Why is it that my life is so different than theirs?

"Read not to contradict and confute, nor to believe and take for granted, nor to find talk and discourse, but to weigh and consider."
-Sir Francis Bacon

Compromising.

Accepting.

Trust.

Every couple must have.

I love u.