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--Diah Mastura--
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Friday, June 29, 2007
 “Love is just a word until you find someone to define it.”
You can’t exactly understand the strong emotion that love is if you don’t have a person to share it with. You see love everywhere, probably everyday, but you don’t feel how powerful it is. How happy it can make a person. How high that persons hopes can be. How low it can make a person from feeling so much pain. You can’t feel any of these powerful feelings unless its brought together by love. Something so easily said. Something that every different person you love gives another meaning to this simple word. When you are in love, that person whom you love gives another meaning to it. It isn’t just a word anymore. It’s so much more than that. It becomes a huge part of your life.
 “Something so easily said. It isn’t just a word anymore.”
Love becomes so much more than a word. More than just something that you see toyed around with in such stupid ways. Love is overpowering. Love can take you out of reality. It can make you see things that aren’t there. Love can make you, or break you. It all depends on the person who helped you define it. They become a part of who you are. Their happiness becomes your own. Their sadness will bring you down also. You strive to make them happy and give them what they deserve. Four letters become thousands of pages worth of emotion. Emotion sometimes impossible to put in words. It won’t make the other person see or feel exactly what you do. They have another definition for this simple four letter word that has taken over you.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
i do feel lonely wen i'm not talking to him,even when i have my family and friends around. i do miss the times together with him. i do dream about him. i do think about him almost most of the time. if i cud, i do wanna see him. i do wanna tell him how much he means to me. i do care for him..
Friday, June 22, 2007
Somehow ive been reflecting about all tht have happened throughout my whole life..
I thank those ppl who have came and go out of my life
I thank those ppl who came and stayed a while
I thank those ppl who came and go but still stay here.
All of you have made me whom i am today :)
Much more matured.
On another note, tml is my PTC. Yah, meet the parents. Dun worry its nt 'meet the in laws 'yet :P ( long way more to go...)
Meeting parents is a good thing to do. But its nt a fun thing. Imagine sitting there in your class from 8.30-12.30 and parents will come one by one, sit in front of you, and you become the storyteller for the day. How great!
No, im not complaining.
Im jus sharing.
And i have to wake up early tml and prepare myself. Not that i have never done this b4, its my 2nd time though.
But the thing, as teachers, you really got to be mindful of your words. Even how bad the child is doing, you've got to find the nicest way to tell the parents and get your point straight.
So now, anyone wanna tell me how easy it is?
Its nt ez. Nothing is ez in this world. And i noe it.
Even though im nearing to a year in this teaching line, there is always sumthing new for me to learn.
Somehow, i have thought of stopping..
End of this year.
Bcoz i wanna further my studies.
But im torn.
Im beginning to love this job.
haiz..
sometimes in life, when u love something or someone already,
there's always another thing that will make u stop, think and think..
i dunno.
i want to continue my study and i want to continue teaching.
i dunno...
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
I received a surprise from " someone" this evening... Something which i wanted and was in my wishlist if u noticed...
Well he did :)
Though not the exact one, but its still something..
Im really touched with the photo u gave me, the card, and the gift..
Though i noe my bdae is still a month more to go...
No special occasion, no special date, not even my birthday...
But thanks so much...
I love it so much...
*wipe tears*
 The gift...
Monday, June 18, 2007
 Mengapa kau masih di sini,menyulam resah di tikar sepi.
Mengapa biarkan sepi mengulit diri,sedang masa itu perlu di isi.
Mengapa kau biarkan masa pergi,sedangkan kau tahu masa takkan kembali.
Mengapa kau masih tangisi memori lalu,sedang kau tahu dia tak pernah merindu.
Mengapa resah sering menghantui,sedangkan kau tahu dia tidak pernah mengingati.
Mengapa masih kau menunggunya di pinggiran,kau pasrah saja jika itu sudah ditakdirkan.
Mengapa nikmat sementara yang dikejari,sedangkan nikmat kekal abadi menanti.
Mengapa dunia yang sering kau cari,sedangkan negeri akhirat yang abadi.
Mengapa cinta fana yang kau dambai,sedangkan cinta Allah kekal abadi.
Mengapa ungkapan soalan senang diukir,sedangkan gersang menunggu jawapan hadir.
Mengapa bertanya pada yang tiada,sekadar menggores mengoyak luka lama....
Wahai Allah padaMu segala jawapan terkumpul,padaMu jua kami meminta dan memohon.
Titipkan kekuatan mengharungi kehidupan,agar beroleh cahaya dan keberuntungan.
Sungguh aku hargai kehadiranmu,mengiringi jalanan dan menyeri kehidupanku,
Sunday, June 17, 2007
"Baby I will wait for youIf you think I'm fine it just ain’t trueI really need you in my lifeNo matter what I have to doI’ll wait for you.."
Been a long time, since our family had a gathering outside..
And last night, 3/4 of the family of Hajah Rahmah, arranged to meet up at Seoul garden @ TM. All thanks to my aunt, who treated the whole family of more than 20 ppl.. It was great.. Meeting up, eating, chit-chatting, sitting down togther. It was about 6tables.. All the teens & kids sat togther and all the adults sat togther.. Its jus a great night togther, the time with your family, cant be bought by cash.. And now, not forgetting most of my cuzins are in their teens, its very rare to meet like the old days.. Thanks to my aunt for arranging this meet up.. And for paying the bill of $500+. And of course, deep in our heart, we jus want to make our nenek happy.. She is the only one whom all of us respect and adore.. The most sporting nenek who ate fast food and join in all the great fun togther.. Nt forgetting her meaningful advices and her unconditional love that she showered to all of us.. Moga allah memberi mu kesihatan yang berpanjangan, dan moga umurmy dipajangkan untuk melihat cucu-cucumu bernikah.. Tanpamu nenek gelaplah dunia kami semua... Insyallah.. *wiped tears*
Thursday, June 14, 2007
" Dear God, I miss talking to you like i used to. It's lesser time now that i could communicate and feel much closer to you. I know you're always there and forever be. Please let me have more time to confide in you. I've been through too much enduring with the pain that no one could understand. I'm keeping too much again with me. I need to let it out. You've accomplished my dreams, now it's the hurdles i haf 2 face and it's never been any better for me. Please take me away from the injustice of life and the seduction of evil thts in the world i'm in. I need to find solace and peace, only to come back strong and more determined."
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Yesterday me & wani attended our friend's wedding, Emilia.. I love the pelamin and her heels.. And the songs that they were playing too ;)
 But this pengantin... Ish..ish.. So the noisy... Hahaha..
 Ala... Sweetnye... Sempat posing eh... Oh my.. One by one of our friends getting married and engage. Leaving me and Wani.. Hahah.. Niza getting married in december pulak.. But its ok... After all they are all in their middle twenties already.. So i guess we are still YOUNG.. and there's a long way more to go.. And before i forget, thanks to WANI, i almost got choke with my food. She suddenly prompt me this question, " dila, will i be your bridesmaid?" I was like.... quiet.. for that moment.BRAIN FREEZE. HEART FREEZE maybe :P and we burst out laughing later on. Maybe WANI got overwhelmed with the wedding.. Hahah.. Who knows i'll be your bridesmaid first instead :P
Saturday, June 02, 2007
 There are times, or perhaps moments where you just sit back and wonder how perfect life could have been if you had not made those mistakes. I do. I wonder how my life would be like if I had said no to somethings but said yes to other things instead etc. It would be a total lie if I were to say that I do not regret what I once did. Heck, sometimes I even hate myself for doing what I did. I’ve been down this road of painful memories way too many times, but everytime, it still manages to get to me. I still get that stingy feeling whenever I think about the past.
People say not to dwell on the past and to look forward instead. But I think they’re wrong cause no matter how much you want to progress forward, your past still tails behind you, or worse, with you. My past is a big part of me and as much as I want to dispose it off, I can’t. One might blame on the fact that I’m not ready to let go of my past and I am thinking too much about what has been done but its not like that. Its something bigger. I don’t really know how to explain cause the awful feeling is just there. The past memories are always niggling in my mind.  In life, it turns out that sometimes, you have to do the wrong thing, sometimes you have to make big mistakes in order to make things right. Sure, mistakes are painful but they’re the only way to find out who you really are.....
Friday, June 01, 2007
 " Love is when everyone believes there's no hope but only you does , cause you in it "
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