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--Diah Mastura--
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Monday, June 26, 2006
Fadilah, You're my ONLY one that I love.
Maya. Siti Sumayyah was her name. She was the very first serious relationship I had and it lasted 2 1/2 years. 2 1/2 painful years before it was gone , leaving a big scar in my life. A tainted life and a shattered heart.She meant the world to me. It was just ... Strange when things occured that way.
Syah. Siti Aisyah. She was someone sweet yet unpredictable. Both shared equal memories in my heart. It was a wound so deep I thought nothing can ever replace them.
Along came Mazlinah. Wow. She was hot~ or so I thought to me. a girl with the brains and .. I dont know what made me like her . Something about her made my heart melt . I remembered it all so clearly...*SIGH*All of it was so painful. All the painful memories...
Along came Fadilah..
A girl out of nowehere whom I adored but never did try ..
You struck me . It was somehow so sweet.. Even though halway through we broke up, we still had our hands together as though nothing happened. I know I hurt you. I know I was cruel to you. I know i was violent.I know i hurt you and made you cry so much.. The sound of you crying rings in my ear.. Haunts the very sacred mind ..Running so deep the subconscious and the guilt builds up.
Dila, You took away all those pain. You took away those hurt. You gave me the confidence I wanted. The love... You never stopped showing it to me. Please, im not kidding.lastly, You've got the heart, A heart of pure innocene. A heart filled with love. So pure that it purifies the souls of those around you slowly. So pure that when one lies to you, you will know- you will feel itYou brought much life to me . Guided me away from the wrongs. I can never forgive myself for hurting you so much.
Even as tears trickle down my cheek as I type this down, I know the tears can never be matched with yours. Yours of pure love, true, unconditioned love. A love that runs so deep one can never doubt of it ..This song Was originally by Elvis Pressly, Resung many times by many people and band..
This song , I selcted it specially.. Specially for you..
Just for you.. no one elase but you Fadilah..Fadilah.. I'll wait for your hand in marriage.. I'll wait for you till my last breath. Today, I pledge my love and my life to you, Siti Nur Fadilah. For you're always ... ALways on my mind ...Always On my Mind -
Elvis Pressley
Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have
Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have
If I made you feel second best
Girl
I'm sorry I was blind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
im sorry I didn't hold you All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told youI'm so happy that you're mine
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
Tell me, tell me that your Sweet love hasn't died
And give me Give me one more chance
To keep you satisfiedsatisfied
Little things I should have
Said and doneI just never took the time
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind....
Saturday, June 24, 2006
 The missing syndrome is killing me.. This is one of the pics i took when i went to the beach with dear before his "hols"
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Friday, June 23, 2006
Okokok.. This is what you guys been waiting,whining & asking for...
Actually im not up for any entries YET. Im jus too tired to do so. But something made me want to blog. That somethin is MY PSYCHOTIC. BUDDIES :)
Oooppss.. My great buddies :P
How fast time flies. And now we have come to the end of the road. Yet the journey is a long way more to go. Somehow or another im having this missing syndrome. Partly becoz of "him" since he is away, and partly is to leave you all..
We have been too close, almost everything we confide in one another. We laugh at one onother, make fun of one another, critise one another, hate one another, but at the end of the day, we still stick as one TOGETHER.
Thats what i like about US :)
We can joke like no one's business, YET we still complete our assignments ;)
rIGHT girlz?
But no matter what we will still meet.
Im jus waiting for the wedding bells to ring..
1ST on the list: M.s Asmathe Banu ( ustazaH)
Bismillahirahman nirahim.....
She is torn between 2guys.
PUMA or that MYSTERY guy
Who will she choose?
stay tune...
2nd on the list: Ms.Ida aka zu, aka fahzura aka Maam. Jason
JASON and ONLY JASON aND FOREVER JASON
oops... i dun think so ;)
She is torn between many
Jason is her soul mate gonna be BUT
All negros, Indians guys are still welcum to fill in the form
For now ONLY
Lets wait till this friend of mine, with her dream marriage
Last on the list ( besides me ) hehehe...
Ms.Cofussionoflove aka Ms.D, aka Ms. special needs aka Ms.phillip
Who else if not WANI :) As for her she is confuse of love, though the answers are all in FRONT of her eyes. We hope she and her DATUK D. AKA Mr.JULY will be together.... As for me... Im happily waiting for the day to be with my soulmate:P OOps... dun be jealous peeps.
You meet some people any given day who fill you with pleasure and joy of life. You feel comfortable and agreeable with them. Their energies are radiating, they just merge with yours, you feel pleased, content and healthy. On the other hand you meet few others that fill you with anguish, anger, frustration and their mere mention can fill us with rage, sadness, disgust and very unhealthy feelings. They literally make us sick by their very presence in real or in our psyche or mind or soul. This does happen to everyone every single day on any planet. This whole process does occur on a subconscious level of mind, where you feel the vibrations but you don't really notice consciously or you simply do not or cant do much about it. This feeling of not being able to do anything leaves us helpless, frustrated and numb at both conscious and subconscious level. How do you deal with it?
p/s: That is the pic. of the card i made for him before he went for his "holidays" :(
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